And the Weather Man Says….

"Yes folks it looks like the weather is improving. In the morning hours when you wake up alone, beware of the fog – especially on those roads ahead that curve. But be patient, the fog will soon lift and the forecast shows partly sunny days ahead."

So I now have my head out of my ass and my blogging sabbatical is over. Thank you for the comments. Each one meant something to me and I really appreciate them. For real.

A couple of weeks ago I was putting my Christmas ornaments away. It’s captivating how an ornament can hold so much of my past. I would gently take an ornament off the tree and as I wrapped each one carefully I remembered the story behind it, the person that gave it to me, thought about whether the person was still in my life or not and if not, wondered what they were doing. Those I had lost contact over the years were added to a list so I could call them later and reconnect. Most were people still in my life. Each one reflected some memory or pulled me back to funny stories and good times. After reminiscing over each one, I put it away.

I finally get down to the last ornament on the tree. The one ornament that brought on the fog to begin with… it was one Bill Clinton* and I bought together at a Hallmark store so long ago… it read “Our First Christmas Together” and for the first time since June, I cried and cried and cried. I was just so sad and so mad. So after a good 15 minutes, I stopped crying. As I put it away I just sat and wondered how it would be next year when I pull this ornament out. Will I remember how I was feeling? Will things be the same? Will I have taken on the courage to change things? Will I even be hanging this ornament on my tree? I put it away.

Then the fog started to lift. Maybe things will be different. Maybe they won’t. But it’s nice to know that I have the opportunity and a whole year to do it. It was comforting to hold in my hand something that represented good friendships and good times. These precious ornaments not only reflect the people that have impacted my life but paved the road I in which I still travel.

* See "My Euphemisms" which contain words used in my blog.