HNT.... How 'bout a peak into my head?

I have been so incredibly busy this week at work. I am sorry if you are one of my daily blog reads... as I am catching up on all the stuff in your life I will most likely comment on somthing you posted a week ago but I have to go in order and I don't want to miss any details so, shit happens and at least I read your blog okay?

All week long, I've had these blog "Post-It" notes piling up in my head leading up to one topic.

Recently I've been thinking about things that I can't control or fix (thanks to my cous). The more I try, I realize I am missing out on the things that are important to me. Frankly, I am tired of carrying these heavy ass burdons on my weary sholders.

For the record: This 30 Something Girl cannot control, fix, or change the following:
1. I cannot change events from my childhood.
2. I cannot be responsible for everyone else's expectations.
3. I cannot change the fact that B cheated and betrayed me.

For the record: This 30 Something Girl can...
1. I can appreciate all the great things from my childhood.
2. I can meet my own expectations.
3. I can stop questioning why he had the affair.

Things this gal needs to work on:
1. I need to work on enjoying the fact that I am no longer a child.
2. I need to raise my expectations.
3. I am going to stop feeling guilty for what I feel.. and actually enjoy some of the thoughts I have ... yep, even the naughty ones.

So tonight, after work I was laughing with two friends and it felt so good not to think and add lines to the "pre-botox" problem areas. I just enjoyed what they had to say and how goofy they are. It really cleared my mind of all the urgent things I have going on right now.

I came home, played with my girls and and did not even correct Syd when she sang Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle all the way, Oh what fun it is to ride in history." In fact, I think it's perfect the way she sang it. I wouldn't change a thing.

I also watched Grey's Anatomy. She ended the show speaking these words to her best friend; "You are my friend, you are my family, you are all i've got. The people that are with you at the end of the day are the family you should invest in. Invasion of your personal space can be exactly what you need." Well said.

So I raise my wine glass to these very people in my life and I will nurture and protect those that are.