Exactly

Oh boy, this is EXACTLY how I feel. I think it's why I struggle with this blog. Some of my posts I base on what others might think. I am getting better at blogging what I think.
I have something to say. I just need to say it.I don't want to live my life making others happy. I want to be happy.
I feel as if there is some time-line I am up against. I've spent so long living my life for others and I know that I must begin to live my life now. I don't want to spend a lifetime dreaming and hoping, talking about the places I want to go, the things I want to do.
One of the things on my list....New York: I want to ride the subway to Times Square. I want to walk through the beautiful streets of the city. I want to see a broadway musical (since this is my first love). I have imagined this for so long that I smell the hotdog cart, I look up at the tall buildings and just stand in awe ... reflecting. I can just see the lights at dusk.
Now my list goes on. Perhaps I will start a page on "My Life's To Do List"